If you've been following my rants on this blog, you may have read that I started dating someone. Well, somewhat dating. We live in two different continents and it's amazing how easy and difficult long distance relationships are. You may have read from my previous post that we've decided to not continue with the "relationship" until we meet. That was almost a month ago. Did we stop? Nope. We somehow got used to texting and calling each other every day and it was a difficult habit to part with. I miss his hearty laugh and his silliness.
We are looking forward to our meeting in May, and hopefully, the virtual relationship we think is working will work as well when that time comes. We are both hopeful, yet scared of the unknown. As each day passes and we get closer to that day - we fret and we worry. At the same time, we are way too excited to even think about it.
I don't know if you've ever been in an online relationship. I have and it all sounds nice over the phone, YM or SKYPE but I've had encounters where it turns our to be totally different when we meet. This may be different but we can't be sure. He tells me that he's sure and that nothing can change how he feels. I am uncertain that I could count on that promise. I am hoping but unyielding.
I just have to take everything one step at a time. Time is our only friend right now. It will come and soon it will pass. That day when we finally gaze at each other's eyes and know for certain where this relationship will lead us.
For now, we will keep on. Nobody said it was going to be easy. No one could give us a guarantee as well. Let's just throw it up in the air and see where it falls.
I don't always voice out what I feel. I rarely show my feelings. But lately, I have been feeling that people have taken advantage of my meekness. It's not my strongest trait. Yet, I noticed that I have been overlooked by my superiors at work. I am a diligent worker, I get things done. I stay after hours if need be. Still, I feel that I haven't gotten what I deserve. People I started with are now at the Director or VP level, and I am left working for people that started after me.
I'm not complaining. With the economic crisis going on, I am fortunate to have a job. Our company laid off workers for the first time in 40 years. Everyone else received a paycut. I am simply wondering why I haven't reached the higher positions that my colleagues have reached. Do I need to become an a**hole to move up? Some of the people who have been promoted (no offense guys) don't even know what they are doing! I, on the other hand have more experience and expertise than they do!
I hate suck ups. That is one thing I detest. If I am going to move up, I want it to be due to my own merits and not because I sucked up to the big boss. Although at times, I think that's the only way! I mean, a person who has screwed up more than accomplish anything was recently promoted to "Director".. come on! Should I take up training? Should I go back to school and take up a "pulling-your-own-strings" course? What am I doing wrong? Arrrrgghh!!! I refuse to believe that a "Once a pee-on is always a pee-on." I still believe strongly that people are rewarded for what they do. But when is it going to happen to me?
My personal trainer. He is an awesome looking kid - turning 20 years of age in a few months, 6" tall, blonde hair, blue eyes. He was approached by an "alleged" professional photographer at the gym, claiming that he is an agent for a modeling agency. To make the long story short, my trainer (in short of cash to say the least) was told that the photographer was looking for someone with his size, physique and look for his magazine and would pay a fee to new models who are interested. In order for his claim to be authentic, he had magazines with him to prove that he is a professional photographer showing his name on the side of the photos on the magazine. He handed his business card to my trainer and said, "keep in touch".
A couple of months later, I am told by my trainer that they had their "test photo shoot" with him wearing nothing but underwear, bikinis and all types of "weird" clothing. It was not even done in a studio, but rather - the photographer's basement. Hello!! I felt that it was kinda off for a "professional" photographer to be doing that without any written agreement with his models. I asked my trainer if he had been given any papers with the photographer's signature, guaranteeing that his pictures will not be published anywhere without consent.
My trainer, being young that he is asked me, "What's that?"
Uh-oh!
I told him to speak with his "friend photographer" and ask for documentation with a guarantee that he is not to release the photographs to anyone unless he has given him written consent. Otherwise, his picture may end up here! :D
Let me be a little off-topic here. I know that you're here for the hottest male photos you can find.. and I will be resuming regular programming shortly.
A buddy of mine sent me this video and I was actually amazed how much I don't know and how amazing and overwhelming everything is.
Looking for the perfect guys can't be that hard right? Besides, they are the ones who work hard on their bodies day and night, take the time to sleep well and eat the right meals. Some do that, but most of them are already naturally blessed with a physique that is perfect even without working out. Some of the ones who work hard at it do get the results that they need. They are at the gym four to five times a week, drink protein shakes and eat chicken breasts every single time. Sheesh! I wish it was that easy.
I chose to relax over the weekend because frankly, I'm exhausted. I haven't been to the gym for a while and I want to get back into it before I go on vacation in May. This weekend is different though. I decided that I will do absolutely nothing this weekend. Relax, watch TV, and sleep early so I can recharge. I want to look like the male beauties in this blog but unlike them, I wasn't blessed with a gene that provides the broad shoulders, the massive chest, arms and legs. I really have to WORK AT IT.
After this weekend, I will definitely try my best to get back into the gym. Every time I take classes at school, my time management skills go down the drain. I have a hard time coping with the stress of studying over the weekend and making sure I'm on the up-and-up on my studies. I need to work on that as well.
Anyway, hope everyone is having a great weekend... just remember, it takes two weeks before any improvements are noticed when you're working out so don't ever give up during the first week thinking nothing is happening. Wait two weeks and then see - - you'll be more motivated by the results then.
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